Realization

Today, when I woke up, I realized that I woke up really late. And then, I further realized that I do not have a job or lets say that I lost my job due to whatever reasons. Standing amidst considerably a huge crowd, I realized that I am so very alone. I knew some faces, and they knew me.

Further when walking down a road, I saw people looking at me as if I am carrying a tag of ultimate frustration and a feeling of failure. It felt as though they can make out what was going on in my mind. It was sort of scary though.

Decisions - Consequences

When I lift a stick from one side, the other side as well is lifted
I know my decisions. And I also know their consequences. But, somewhere, somehow I am little afraid. I want to talk it out, just cannot speak. In my entire life, it is the first time that my fears have embraced me so tightly. When I wish to describe my fears, I fail to pen their image. Thanks to the positivity that my friends radiate for it ultimately helps me to interpret this darkness just as a passage through a tunnel. I am able to see a light which is small, dim and distant; but I am able to see it.

I am so unstable, but one thing I would always love to work upon is – management. Whether it is in regards to time, relationships, priorities, assets or liabilities. I want to just keep on marching towards perfection in every possible way. Somebody told me that – ‘Life is absolutely simple. It is we who make it complicated’ – Indeed a wise thought. It is my thoughts, plans; wants, desires, proceedings, statements, deeds, etc. contribute to the Life’s complexity

Disappointment

It is absolutely disappointing
It is perfectly undermining
Don’t know whether it is more than a liking
Whatever may it be, my whole system is winding

I want to let my anger and rage flare
But doing so, it would be purely unfair
To force her – it’s not at all my affair
Maybe someone is waiting for me somewhere

My statements and my feelings might sound
Like any other ark that is drowned
On her, I do not wish to pound
Yes, I need to push my dreams on the ground

This is the way I Love You....

Faraway I see something in the distance
Twisting all my memories
Faraway I wanna make-up for my mistakes
Like new plants in the sceneries

I wish to reverse the sands
That pass through the hole of time
In order to re-edit the poem
of my life, to correct the rhyme

Willing to meet you once again
To see you once again
To inhale you once again
To taste, to feel you once again

I wish to see myself with you
Holding your smooth skinned hand
Feels like a roadside flower
Being watered in a dry land

Hope to communicate in the poem
What my vocal chords couldn't do
The way a unique note of the instrument
What rest of them can't do

Oh my love, even with the vision
You act so blind to me
Behold! I stand with a heart of
love, care, faithfulness. Do you not see?

I may not resemble to the prince
charming of your dreams
Like a young, fair, handsome star
in the sky he gleams

How I wish to take you to the
deepest core of my heart, heights of my mind
And in case, literally, if it was possible,
I would think of God to be kind

You heard me speaking more with
your ears than your heart
I wish you heard me speaking
less with your ears and more with your heart

I may not understand you as a boy (me)
is supposed to know a girl (you)
If permitted, I would do so as a
fish knows its water through and through

I am very well aware of
my weaknesses and frailties
But if it makes you love me
I would happily take the penalties

You never said a lovely YES
Nor I see a NO in your eyes
Even if you said a strong NO
I would gladly take it as true LIES

I surely understand that one
can never forget his/her past
Like a visionary, an explorer looks forward
For this moment, this time is not the last

Truly, silver or gold, none
do have I
But, I want to and need to
give it more than a try

Accept this heart
carefully, preserved from people
Also I do respect your freedom
of choice. Its just so very simple

Since human beings do
love, hate, laugh and cry
Coming from the same species
we also never forget to try

You became my inspiration
Beyond my own imagination
Of you, every moment
I shall think in alliteration

When you wear a lovely smile
on your face and say - No, no, no...
It feels like, in the winter,
adding whiteness to the snow

Upon me, thou hast cast a spell
Which even you can't erase
It feels like an unattended mirror
Longing for its favorite face

Every moment I see you
I desire you in arms of mine
Willing to take you to a place
Where 'I am yours and you're mine!'

Every time I think of you
I desire you more than anyone does
I just wish to say that I crave
for you, please don't take it to be my lust

I've come across many eyes, many lips,
many faces but they weren't perfect
It wasn't their fault at all. To them
I never happened to connect

I cannot bear the distance, unknowingly
that is added by you
I may stand really close;
But still feels like faraway from you

There's a fact about me
Which is funny and was absent
You've been really good at teaching me
How to be patient

I hope what I wish to propose
One day is accepted by you
Don't be too late to not to have me to say
"This is the way I LOVE YOU..."

Sonnet To Pain

There is a feeling about which I want to talk
It is as strong, as hard, as solid and as rough as a rock
I am speaking about a feeling called Pain
I want to forget it, but in vain
It stands as an oak in every season
Yes, I do wonder, what’s the reason?

Many like it, even if it is intense
To me, compromising with it doesn’t make any sense
More powerful than anything, over me, it does hail
I want escape this prison even if I get no bail
It hits me harder than the desert breeze
I quest myself; will I ever get some peace?

Like a tired farmer who waits for the rain;
So too I wait for some gain, after this feeling called Pain

I Like You....

I may not be able to tell you
That, I like you
Believing that my silence will speak
For me; I would like to praise your beauty eight days a week
My feelings are not very mushy, but still they’re true
All I know that they were meant only for you

Today, I’d like to halt the sands of time
So that I can spell my rhyme
It describes your speech that brings appease
Your beautiful hair that waves in the breeze
Those eyes so richly bright
With a smile that radiates light

Neither do I expect you to approve my feeling
Nor will I resist your thoughts from revealing.
It seems to be an illusion to me
Even if it is a lie, I’d cherish it with a glee
In your heart, I hope to leave a niche
And a moment with you, I would like to snitch

I can talk of you in alliteration
Do not mistake it as my desperation
If you ever wish to hear it,
Lo, I will speak of you in every bit
I would be happy if you don’t deny my request
All I can assure you that I’ll be my best

Asma's Song

The song is in Hindi.

Jaise tera naam hain,

Sab samaye sitaare hain

Suraj aur chanda tujhme hi hain

Kyunki tera naam Asma hai

Asma, Asma, Asma hai x4

Indradhanush ke saat rang hain

Waise hi hum, tere sang hain

Badalon ka ek jahan hai

Haan kyunki tu Asma hai

Asma, Asma, Asma hai x4

Bridge:

Panchi ki udaan adhuree si hai,

Phool aur kaliyaan rukhi si hai,

Ped aur ambiyaan sukhi si hai,

Khushiyon ki galiyaan suni si hai

Woh waqt roothe hai, jisme tu naa mile

Woh din jhoote hai, jisme tu naa mile